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Kafka & Beckett

"I spoke (I must have spoken) of a lesson. It was "pensum" I should have said: I confused pensum with lesson. Yes, I have a pensum to discharge, before I can be free (free to dribble, free to speak no more, listen no more), and I've forgotten what it is. There at last is a fair picture of my situation. I was given a pensum (at birth perhaps), as a punishment for having been born perhaps (or for no particular reason, because they dislike me) - and I've forgotten what it is. But was I ever told?"
(Beckett, The Unnamable)

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Where there are people (it is said) there are things. Does this mean that when you admit the former you must also admit the latter? Time will tell. The thing to avoid (I don't know why) is the spirit of system. People with things, people without things, things without people - what does it matter? I flatter myself it will not take me long to scatter them, whenever I choose, to the winds. (I don't see how.)
Beckett, The Unnamable.

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Yaşamanın olduğu yere vardı
Elini uzattı Hasan
Yaşamak biraz öteye gitti
Biraz daha biraz daha derken
Ayağı bir halıya takıldı
Ondan sonrasını bilmiyor Hasan
Vurdular eline kelepçeyi
Candarmalarda insaf ne gezer
Koydular Hasan´ı mapusaneye
Hasan dışarı baktı
Yaşamak duvarın dibindeydi
Elini uzattı Hasan
Yaşamak biraz öteye gitti
Nevzat Üstün, Hırsız Hasan

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Play is an interference phenomenon. Two children playing together create a balanced binary opposition. Three children is a more fluid, but also more dynamic, harmony. Four children polarize again in two doubled units, more stable than the triangle. Five is again fluid; six is normally the largest number of children that can play an improvised game that isn't organized by a dominant leader among them. Only once had Kaspar seen seven children play together in a fair and balanced way. That had been artists' children who had traveled with the circus a whole summer; it had been at the end of the season, they had known they would be leaving each other, and it had lasted less than an hour. Games for more than seven children required rules set and supervised by adults, like ball games, for example.

There were no adults in the scene before him, no dominant sound. There were eleven children. And they played in perfect harmony.
...
The Quiet Girl, Peter Høeg.

378

the mysteriously disappearing grapes... since two days... emerged up from my sleeves today...

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'Dolce Vita'da Marcello, 'Hayatımı seni severek geçirmeye niyetim yok' diye kıza bağırdığında, çenem düştü. Manda gibi bakakaldım. Ellerim, alkışlamaya benzer bir reflekste bulundu. 'Dur dur' dedim, 'gürültü yapmayın, ne diyo anlamıyorum!' Ağzıma bir üzüm daha tıkıştırdım. Başa alıp, bir daha izledim.

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she sings
a woman in the streets
the last cigarette
or the night goes on
or the train is coming back
or the train is coming back
and my baby
i have dreamed of
in many places
is coming back

whatever she sings
words are like bread in her mouth

Sam Cornish - The Blues